dinosauria, we

i like this:

Born like this
Into this
As the chalk faces smile
As Mrs. Death laughs
As the elevators break
As political landscapes dissolve
As the supermarket bag boy holds a college degree
As the oily fish spit out their oily prey
As the sun is masked
We are
Born like this
Into this
Into these carefully mad wars
Into the sight of broken factory windows of emptiness
Into bars where people no longer speak to each other
Into fist fights that end as shootings and knifings
Born into this
Into hospitals which are so expensive that it’s cheaper to die
Into lawyers who charge so much it’s cheaper to plead guilty
Into a country where the jails are full and the madhouses closed
Into a place where the masses elevate fools into rich heroes
Born into this
Walking and living through this
Dying because of this
Muted because of this
Castrated
Debauched
Disinherited
Because of this
Fooled by this
Used by this
Pissed on by this
Made crazy and sick by this
Made violent
Made inhuman
By this
The heart is blackened
The fingers reach for the throat
The gun
The knife
The bomb
The fingers reach toward an unresponsive god
The fingers reach for the bottle
The pill
The powder
We are born into this sorrowful deadliness
We are born into a government 60 years in debt
That soon will be unable to even pay the interest on that debt
And the banks will burn
Money will be useless
There will be open and unpunished murder in the streets
It will be guns and roving mobs
Land will be useless
Food will become a diminishing return
Nuclear power will be taken over by the many
Explosions will continually shake the earth
Radiated robot men will stalk each other
The rich and the chosen will watch from space platforms
Dante’s Inferno will be made to look like a children’s playground
The sun will not be seen and it will always be night
Trees will die
All vegetation will die
Radiated men will eat the flesh of radiated men
The sea will be poisoned
The lakes and rivers will vanish
Rain will be the new gold
The rotting bodies of men and animals will stink in the dark wind
The last few survivors will be overtaken by new and hideous diseases
And the space platforms will be destroyed by attrition
The petering out of supplies
The natural effect of general decay
And there will be the most beautiful silence never heard
Born out of that.
The sun still hidden there
Awaiting the next chapter.

eat em up tigers, eat em up!

Crossin’ another one off the good ole list.  #55, went to my first tigers game!  It was just as fun (and expensive) as I imagined it’d be.  Our seats were pretty far up, but every seat at comerica park is a good seat.   I love that stadium, it has such an awesome view of Detroit.  It was the perfect day for a baseball game too, sunny and 80 degrees all day, and it stayed warm all night!  I’m not the biggest baseball fan, but apparently it was a really good game.  There was a grand slam (that’s 3 home runs in a row…right?), and they won. yeeeehaw!  I spent a lot of money there…but I expected to so it’s all good.  I got myself a 10 dollar ‘daquri’ that tasted like a slurpee in a souvenier cup.  I’m gonna use it as a change jar.  and then I got a $8.50 cheeseburger and a $4 soft pretzel and a $8 beer.  All in all it was a good experience, and I hope to go to at LEAST a few more games this summer!

me and melissa in front of the tiger.

great view of detroit….love all the old buildings.

us 🙂

in other (sad) news, my fish have a disease or something, they are dropping dead like flies!  I’ve netted out 8 fish corpses today….and the few i have left look like they probably wont make it through the night.  poor fishies 😦

adios camera :( oh, and list stuff.

On Saturday night, my overly intoxicated self irresponsibly lost my camera. I’m pretty sure it was left on the table at the last bar we were at. Nobody turned it in, assholes. I feel LOST without my camera. There goes my flick-a-days and my weekly photo updates (I kinda got one week in…) Also, this was going to be the week that I took a picture of everything I ate all week. (number 15 on the list.) I guess I’ll probably have to buy a new one. I’m REALLY trying to save money but I feel like a camera is a necessity.

So, anyway. Number 44 on my list is to take a picture every day, and post the pictures weekly. Here are last weeks pictures (with the exception of Sunday because I had no camera 😦 )

April 18 –  I drew this in my sketchbook.

April 19 — I drew another picture in my sketchbook.

April 20 –This is where I take Tasha for her walks.

April 21– I spent hours perfecting the ‘marble’ technique on my nails.

April 22 – my fishy face flick-a-day

April 23 – Friday night drinks on my couch with my friend Melissa.

April 24 – Saturday night at the bar. This is where I lost my camera. (this was taken with my phone)

One more thing.  I’m starting # 9 on the list.  (complete the 200 sit up challenge) I just did my ‘initial sit-up test’ and managed to squeeze out 50 consecutive sit ups.  I guess that’s good because it told me to skip to week 3!  I’m going to be such a badass if i can do 200 consecutive sit ups.  I hope I can do it!

My “101 things in 1001 days” list

After a FULL day of brainstorming (and borrowing from other lists), I FINALLY completed my list. I feel good, accomplished, motivated, etc… I’m excited to get started on it, and update ya’ll on my progress.

check it out here

charles bukowski, i <3 you.

“The problem was you had to keep choosing between one evil or another, and no matter what you chose, they sliced a little bit more off you, until there was nothing left. At the age of 25 most people were finished. A whole god-damned nation of assholes driving automobiles, eating, having babies, doing everything in the worst way possible, like voting for the presidential candidates who reminded them most of themselves. I had no interests. I had no interest in anything. I had no idea how I was going to escape. At least the others had some taste for life. They seemed to understand something that I didn’t understand. Maybe I was lacking. It was possible. I often felt inferior. I just wanted to get away from them. But there was no place to go.”

-Charles Bukowski (Ham On Rye)

things i like (and want)

….if i were rich.

the puffy version of dev

a picture of me from march of last year:

and a picture of me from march of this year:

our future

devynneleven (12:06:40 AM): nurse. yup. that’s what it is

devynneleven (12:06:46 AM): cuz there are so many different options when you’re a nurse

devynneleven (12:06:53 AM): you can specialize in like, anything.

sophia (12:06:58 AM): feet!

sophia (12:07:02 AM): im specializing in feet!

devynneleven (12:07:06 AM): ewwww

sophia (12:07:09 AM): lolol no iw ant to twork at an abortion clinic

sophia (12:07:10 AM): duh

devynneleven (12:07:40 AM): labor and delivery for me!

sophia (12:07:48 AM): lol. awwww. opposites

devynneleven (12:07:51 AM): hahahahah

sophia (12:07:59 AM): youllbe bringing babies into the world and ill take them out

sophia (12:08:01 AM): muahaha

dead wood

LEO: Don’t let the way things are going fool you for a moment. None of this is as bad or as good as it looks. You can’t trust your senses and you definitely can’t apply logic to this situation, so that leaves you without a whole lot of clarity. It would be better for you if you could find a way to cut through to whatever’s most meaningful and essential. I say this because you’re approaching a time when a lot of dead wood has to be removed from your life. In order to know what to keep and what to let go you have to get crystal clear about what really matters to you.

SOOOO helpful! thank you realdetroit for having such a dead-on astrologer

check yours out here: http://www.realdetroitweekly.com/content/article_6182.shtml

shoesies

I need some new tennies, in a pretty bad way.  I think i MIGHT just go with some chucks.  (classic, doesn’t really ever go out of style…)  But I can’t decide which ones I like better?  opinions welcomed.

OR

OR should i spend a little extra $$ and get these: