dinosauria, we

i like this:

Born like this
Into this
As the chalk faces smile
As Mrs. Death laughs
As the elevators break
As political landscapes dissolve
As the supermarket bag boy holds a college degree
As the oily fish spit out their oily prey
As the sun is masked
We are
Born like this
Into this
Into these carefully mad wars
Into the sight of broken factory windows of emptiness
Into bars where people no longer speak to each other
Into fist fights that end as shootings and knifings
Born into this
Into hospitals which are so expensive that it’s cheaper to die
Into lawyers who charge so much it’s cheaper to plead guilty
Into a country where the jails are full and the madhouses closed
Into a place where the masses elevate fools into rich heroes
Born into this
Walking and living through this
Dying because of this
Muted because of this
Castrated
Debauched
Disinherited
Because of this
Fooled by this
Used by this
Pissed on by this
Made crazy and sick by this
Made violent
Made inhuman
By this
The heart is blackened
The fingers reach for the throat
The gun
The knife
The bomb
The fingers reach toward an unresponsive god
The fingers reach for the bottle
The pill
The powder
We are born into this sorrowful deadliness
We are born into a government 60 years in debt
That soon will be unable to even pay the interest on that debt
And the banks will burn
Money will be useless
There will be open and unpunished murder in the streets
It will be guns and roving mobs
Land will be useless
Food will become a diminishing return
Nuclear power will be taken over by the many
Explosions will continually shake the earth
Radiated robot men will stalk each other
The rich and the chosen will watch from space platforms
Dante’s Inferno will be made to look like a children’s playground
The sun will not be seen and it will always be night
Trees will die
All vegetation will die
Radiated men will eat the flesh of radiated men
The sea will be poisoned
The lakes and rivers will vanish
Rain will be the new gold
The rotting bodies of men and animals will stink in the dark wind
The last few survivors will be overtaken by new and hideous diseases
And the space platforms will be destroyed by attrition
The petering out of supplies
The natural effect of general decay
And there will be the most beautiful silence never heard
Born out of that.
The sun still hidden there
Awaiting the next chapter.

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charles bukowski, i <3 you.

“The problem was you had to keep choosing between one evil or another, and no matter what you chose, they sliced a little bit more off you, until there was nothing left. At the age of 25 most people were finished. A whole god-damned nation of assholes driving automobiles, eating, having babies, doing everything in the worst way possible, like voting for the presidential candidates who reminded them most of themselves. I had no interests. I had no interest in anything. I had no idea how I was going to escape. At least the others had some taste for life. They seemed to understand something that I didn’t understand. Maybe I was lacking. It was possible. I often felt inferior. I just wanted to get away from them. But there was no place to go.”

-Charles Bukowski (Ham On Rye)

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best of oh nine (v 1.0)

sophia inspired me to do this. (she’s doing it as well…so go check hers out after you read mine: http://www.pinkielarue.com/)

it’s basically a year in review. you are supposed to write once a day for every day in december, but since i’m starting a little late i’ll do what i can to catch up.  Read rules and what not HERE: http://blog.20sb.net/2009/12/the-best-of-2009-challenge.html

ok, so here it goes.

What was your best trip in 2009? The best trip I took in 09 is the ONLY trip i took in 09.  ROAAAAD TRIP 09!  Me and Emily drove from detroit to san antonio, with a few stops in between.  We stayed  in Memphis for a couple nights and partied with  soph.  We discovered the greatness that is beale street and big ass beers.  We ate some Memphis bbq and we visited sun studio.  We got stopped by a HOT cop!  We spent a few hours in a tornado warning.  And then as a parting gift, we got bedbug bites. 

From Memphis we drove to Dallas.  In Dallas we partied with Emilys friend Daniel.  There was some interesting drama, empty bars, and an entertaining IHOP waiter.  From Dallas we went to San Antonio where we stayed the majority of the time.  We stayed at Sam and Pams house, and holy shizzz it was HOT! (remind me to never move to texas.)  We swam, we sweated, we did beer bongs, we sweated, we swam some more, we drank some beer and we went to the riverwalk (beautiful!) and ate at hard rock cafe.  My bedbug bites were extra itchy in San Antonio and Alison developed a lovely heat rash on our last day there. We flew home, and we definitely looked pretty rough at the airport.  Emily slept the whole flight home which just left me with my music and the window.

Share the best restaurant experience you had this year. Who was there? What made it amazing? What taste stands out in your mind? I am sort of going to copy sophias answer for this question.  I generally do not go to resteraunts often, and when I do I always choose the same places over and over again. Therefor, no amazing experiences really come to mind.  HOWEVER, in January, once I got my feet back on american soil…I couldn’t get to a buffalo wild wings fast enough.  I wasn’t really expecting chicken wings to be the american food I missed the most, but I ALWAYS craved them while I was in amsterdam.  8 chicken wings with medium sauce and a side of ranch (ohhhh I missed ranch while i was gone too) never tasted so good, and i’m pretty sure it’ll never taste that good again.  I even documented it.

Book. What book – fiction or non – touched you? Where were you when you read it? Have you bought and given away multiple copies? I haven’t read much this year.  Actually, i’m pretty sure all I’ve read this year were bukowski books.  I read Post Office, Ham on Rye and Factotum.  Ham on Rye was my favorite of the 3, and I read it in two days in May.  I read it when I first started nannying for tasha and she was only 3 months old …and boring (for lack of a better word).  During that time I also read the first twilight book (which did not live up to all the hype).  I kind of miss those days where I could get some reading in at work,  these days I can’t even read a magazine without her tearing it out of my hands.  Anyway, I havne’t given away any copies but I definitley recommend you read it…it’s an easy read and quite entertaining.

ok that’s it.  Just 3 entries.  I’ll do 3 a day I think….check back soon.

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