My “101 things in 1001 days” list

After a FULL day of brainstorming (and borrowing from other lists), I FINALLY completed my list. I feel good, accomplished, motivated, etc… I’m excited to get started on it, and update ya’ll on my progress.

check it out here

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charles bukowski, i <3 you.

“The problem was you had to keep choosing between one evil or another, and no matter what you chose, they sliced a little bit more off you, until there was nothing left. At the age of 25 most people were finished. A whole god-damned nation of assholes driving automobiles, eating, having babies, doing everything in the worst way possible, like voting for the presidential candidates who reminded them most of themselves. I had no interests. I had no interest in anything. I had no idea how I was going to escape. At least the others had some taste for life. They seemed to understand something that I didn’t understand. Maybe I was lacking. It was possible. I often felt inferior. I just wanted to get away from them. But there was no place to go.”

-Charles Bukowski (Ham On Rye)

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things i like (and want)

….if i were rich.

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the puffy version of dev

a picture of me from march of last year:

and a picture of me from march of this year:

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dead wood

LEO: Don’t let the way things are going fool you for a moment. None of this is as bad or as good as it looks. You can’t trust your senses and you definitely can’t apply logic to this situation, so that leaves you without a whole lot of clarity. It would be better for you if you could find a way to cut through to whatever’s most meaningful and essential. I say this because you’re approaching a time when a lot of dead wood has to be removed from your life. In order to know what to keep and what to let go you have to get crystal clear about what really matters to you.

SOOOO helpful! thank you realdetroit for having such a dead-on astrologer

check yours out here: http://www.realdetroitweekly.com/content/article_6182.shtml

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shoesies

I need some new tennies, in a pretty bad way.  I think i MIGHT just go with some chucks.  (classic, doesn’t really ever go out of style…)  But I can’t decide which ones I like better?  opinions welcomed.

OR

OR should i spend a little extra $$ and get these:

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dammit devynn, blog!

devynneleven (12:31:58 PM): i’ll have to find out when i’m ovulating and go that day

ohpapaya (12:33:03 PM): there’s an app for that

devynneleven (12:33:46 PM): lol!

anywho. fail blogger right here.  gettin back in the game, jumpin back on the wagon.

I’m goin to North Carolina next weekend to visit my mumma.  I haven’t seen her since November 1st! miss her lotttssss, and I miss nellers.  I can’t wait to squeeze that cat.  She’s the bitchiest cat you’ll EVER meet.  Seriously, the biggest psycho EVER! But that’s why we love her 🙂

ummm what else?  I am having a brain fart.  I think ima try to find a second job again….  I gotta start saving for when I have to move out.  I know i’m gonna have to pay a HELL of a security deposit wherever i go.  Save devynn, save!!!

Ok, that’s all I got.  It was something though, right?

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diamond in the rough

I’ve been doing a lot of self reflecting lately.  I’ve been very “in my head” for a few days…i kinda like when i get like this because it makes me feel deep and interesting. But it’s also annoying because my brain needs a break.

what it comes down to is, i suck at communication, and i’m too guarded.

but then a friend said something to make me feel a little better about myself, heres how it went down:

her (9:09:05 PM): remember when i first started to hang out, i thought you hated me bc you never talked to me lol

me (9:09:22 PM): lol yeh it takes me a long time to let people in

me (9:09:27 PM): is that a good thing or bad? i dunno!

her (9:09:42 PM): its both!! it makes you you

and then she went on to give me some analogy about diamonds and coal.  it was actually quite helpful and made me feel less frustrated with myself.

her (9:10:07 PM): think of it like this

her (9:10:32 PM): you go stright to the diamonds before the coal

her (9:10:48 PM): i go through the coal to get the diamonds

her (9:11:00 PM): wtf am i talking about?

me (9:11:05 PM): lolol

me (9:11:20 PM): coal and diamonds? i dont get it

her (9:11:27 PM): lol diamonds come from coal

me (9:12:17 PM): oh so you mean like, i weed out all the coal and find the diamonds?

her (9:12:24 PM): yes!!!

me (9:12:30 PM): i like it!

me (9:12:36 PM): good analogy

her (9:12:37 PM): you dont even bother with the coal, you keep your hands clean!

so, in conclusion, i guess i’m being a little too hard on myself.

but it wouldn’t hurt to break down some of my walls, right?

i’ll try.

in other news, i finally did something to my ‘who?’ page: https://yooshername.wordpress.com/about/

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rawr

I used to think I didn’t fit the leo mold.  But, lately, I am beginning to find lots of traits that sound just like me.  I recently bought a really cool book, here’s a little bit about what it says about me.  I bolded the things I agree with…. what do you think??

LEO

“Symbolized by the blazing and radiant sun, the fixed fire sign of Leo spreads its creative warmth over all within its sphere of influence.  Leos pride themselves on keeping their fire under control and making judgment calls that can benefit others. Passionate emotionally, those born under this sign will not be denied what they desire and are prepared to fight for it if necessary.  Leos demand the respect of others and will prove reliable by following through on their commitments.”

The Leo First Date:

Should you ignite Leo’s fire on the first date, the only problem you may face afterward is trying to put it out.  Traditionally standoffish, on a first date Leos will usually adopt a pragmatic attitude:  Let’s see what you are made of.  Therefore, a Leo first date is turned into a kind of tryout in which you are measured and judged.  If acceptable, further developments are possible; if you fail the test, you are out. Remember, it is generally the Leo who does the rejecting, not you.  Should you break this rule, beware of the consequences sure to be showered on you by the spurned leo first date.

Affection and the Leo Boyfriend/Girlfriend

Leos are generally passionate rather than senuous types, preferring outright sexual expressions to affectionate ones.  They like to maintain a cool persona in public, so they will avoid hugs, snuggles, fond looks, and other overtly affectionate gestures.  This may also carry over into times when you are alone with them.  To Leos, being overly affectionate is not only unnecessary, but it can actually irritate them and turn them off entirely. You will have to educate them about your own special needs in this department if they are not forthcoming.  Be prepared to encounter some resistance.

The Leo Friend

Leos are legendary for making excellent friends.  Their loyalty, devotion, and support can be outstanding, and they are known for standing by their closest friends in both good times and bad.  Their need to be needed is not overly great, so they will also quite happily leave you alone for long periods of time if you prefer it that way, without the friendship suffering.  On the other hand, they enjoy a daily check-in or interaction with their best friends and love to share the latest news and gossip. They prefer actual meetings to virtual ones, but since your schedules may be busy, the odd text message or phone call will suffice until you can see eachother again.

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the goods

So, it’s taken me a while to actually do it, but here’s all the GOOD things that are happening, of which i’m happy about.

• my job. i’m making good money for 3 days per week. and i LOVE tasha.
• the living situation.  I love living alone. I love doing what i want, when i want, how i want, where i want, however i want to do it.
• art. drawing/painting/creating comforts me.  It’s good for when I feel like i’m going crazy.  I call it my art therapy.
• my health.  This last year has been a good year for my health.  I’ve completely (for the most part) have changed my diet for the better, and I’m getting in shape/exercising regularly.  I’ve lost 20 lbs.  I can’t even remember the last time I had any back pain.
• semi-regular sex isn’t a bad thing either, eh?

that’s all i’ve got.  check back in when i’m in a less cynical phase in my life.

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